Help dealing with potential demon/negative entity
PREFACE: I just wanted to preface this with - I do not have any (diagnosed or obvious) mental health issues, due to my area of work I tend to look at facts and patterns when dealing with issues. I have seen my doctor over the years and tried to deal with issues through those pathways, so the following is based on the fact I have already exhausted everything I can think of.
Also there is a lot of information because I think context and detail is important.
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I believe that I may have some sort of demon or negative entity that has attached itself to me, and is feeding off my negative emotions.
I have always been a person with generally good luck. At most my luck would be up and down as anyone would expect. Sometimes I would be very lucky, other times things wouldn't go my way. That's life and as far as I am aware that is normal. Overall I have always been a very positive person and the person other people in my life have looked to as the one to fix any issues because I knew no matter what the issue was, it would work itself out in the end.
In 2019 I moved into an old house that I was renting with my partner. At the time I was not a big believer in the paranormal although I had a generally open mind. This house was creepy, it felt like you were being watched all the time. The bathroom and shower was on the other side of the house from the main bedroom and I genuinely felt terrified at times having to use the bathroom at night. My partners friend stayed one night and slept on the sofa and she was a person who had claimed she could see spirits and things. We never told her we thought the house was haunted or creepy and the next morning she told us that she woke up during the night and a spirit/ghost was standing at the end of the sofa staring at her. We stayed 6 months and then left.
This is where things in my life started to shift, slowly at first. We decided to buy a house, I had a high paying job and access to a deposit so we found an amazing 2 storey house with a pool and everything and decided to rent this terrible house we found because it was cheap and we really just needed to move our stuff there and sleep until settlement. Well the deal fell through, then 2020 happened and we were stuck in this terrible house. My position became redundant and my health suffered because I was not allowed to goto the gym anymore and I went 6 days a week etc, but it was bad for everyone.
Since then I have one by one lost everything in my life I cared about or worked towards.
- My Dad died out of nowhere.
- My Mum started blaming me for her problems and doesn't talk to me and my sister doesn't talk to me (previously my family was very close).
- I had a nice car which was my safe space in a way and it was taken from me in a very horrible and confronting way.
- I started a business and by all accounts it should have been good but everything went wrong and it was almost always things completely outside of my control like economy and stock supply issues leading me to shut it down and be left in debt.
- I started another business where I make good money but no matter how much I make it is never enough, cost of living sky rockets, I will bring in 10k in one week and all of a sudden owe 12k somewhere.
- My partner and I had the greatest relationship and now we sleep in separate rooms and no matter what I try and do for her and my family she cannot tell me what the issue is so I am left in limbo with no idea what to do.
- My health has deteriorated. I am constantly having my bloods done etc and they cannot find an issue but I am always tired, even when I sleep 3-4 days in a row.
- My luck in general has gotten to the point where almost always the outcome will be the worst/most annoying. Lets say I am working on the car and have to get under the car, I grab every single allen key I have (like 40 of them) and if one key is lost or missing I will crawl all the way under the car to find it was THAT one I needed. All of my ps5 games are kept meticulously in their covers in a specific drawer, I said to my partner I might play a certain game I hadn't played in a while, open the cover - it is missing. I tell her I might play a pc game I haven't played in a bit and guess what the graphics are a mess and so I reinstall the game and its still a mess and I find out with current drivers thats a known issue, have to wait for a fix. These sound like small things but it is constant to the point my partner said "If I didn't see it happen every single time daily, I would think you were crazy or overexaggerating".
- In general if there is something I want, for whatever reason I just cannot have it no matter how hard I try. The more I push against it the more the "universe" fights back. This is really hard to explain and not simply a negative outlook on life, its like I used to flow with life/the universe and now I am crashing against it constantly.
- Time seems to be going really fast, I get that in general that happens as you get older, but I feel like I am losing time and then I will sleep through the weekends no matter how much sleep I have had and how untired I am so I never get any free time.
I started to think perhaps it was a negative entity because there is no balance, it is always a negative result for me, so I looked into it and tried being positive and manifesting what I wanted in case I was in some sort of negative spiral. Didn't work.
The next part is why I am here. The other night I had a shower, looked in the mirror and told whatever entity that it was not welcome and must leave. I invoked the protection of Archangel Michael and Jesus Christ, I then laid in bed, put on headphones and listened to healing frequencies/protective frequencies while I slept. My stomach hurt badly and I slept for about 4 days, my partner tried to wake me up but she couldn't. I eventually woke up and had to fight myself just to sit up and get out of bed. Every time I blinked its like my eyelids would stop and not open and I would fall asleep again.
My only thought from this is that I tried to fight something and it fought back and stole my entire easter 4 day weekend. I do not feel better at all. I should not have needed that sleep, I was plenty rested, none of it makes any sense.
What do I do about this? I would appreciate any help or direction anyone can give me.