I'm 21 and finishing my 3rd year at college and I've changed my major 3 times. I simply cannot decide what I want to do. I feel like I'm just wasting time and money at this point. It's getting embarrassing and I feeling like I'm disappointing my family.
I started college as Music Education major because that felt right to me and it's also what everyone expected of me. That semester I thought it was too much for me and changed my major to Game Design. It was my back-up that I had been thinking about for a while. I did that for a year and started to get scared about job security and money so I changed my major to Finance. Did that for a year, as well, before I concluded that I hated it. I thought about taking [this] semester off to maybe try and figure it all out, but financial aid would be screwed up if I did. So I went back to Music Ed, because I didn't know what else to do.
I don't think I'm good enough for music or making games and I know that's what college is for: to learn. But, everyone else around me knows so much more than me and I'd have to work so much harder to keep up and I just don't have that kind of motivation or determination unfortunately. I've considered jobs outside of college as well like Real Estate Agencies or Travel Planners, but I can't drop out. My family would be upset and disappointed and honestly a part of me too.
A lot of people say it's not that big of a deal and to just pick one, but it is a big deal? There's money and time spent on the degree and I want to make sure I make the right choice. I don't know why I'm struggling so much with the decision because it seems everyone else knows exactly what they want to do, or at least knows the direction to go in. I don't even have that. Another problem is that I cannot imagine myself doing only 1 type of job for my entire life. I have many interests and I want time for all of them but I'm starting to realize that adulthood doesn't have time for that so I should probably let some of them go.
I don't even know how anyone can help me honestly, but I thought I'd try here. I'll understand if you can't.