u/Distinct_Ferret4870

Hey everyone,

I have been struggling with an eating disorder for more than half of my life. Never fully recovered but experienced periods of "it's still there but better". However, for about 3 years now, I've been going through a serious relapse. Consequently, I've had a few recovery attempts, which all resulted in me getting worse than before.

I an probably someone who you would call a highly functioning individual. I myself work in mental health and am able to complete my work if I rigidly stick to my ED routines. However, it all feels like a lie and the pressure of having to be okay for work is preventing me from fully letting go and taking care of myself.

No one at work knows about this. Whether people are suspecting something, I am unsure. However, because of my high productivity and zero absences, I would not be surprised if they had no idea.

The problem is that I am on a contract, not in a permanent post and I am so worried of letting people around me down, especially the people I work with, as I see myself as highly responsible and reliable.

I would appreciate your thoughts. Thanks.

Hey everyone,

I have been struggling with an eating disorder for more than half of my life. Never fully recovered but experienced periods of "it's still there but better". However, for about 3 years now, I've been going through a serious relapse. Consequently, I've had a few recovery attempts, which all resulted in me getting worse than before.

I an probably someone who you would call a highly functioning individual. I myself work in mental health and am able to complete my work if I rigidly stick to my ED routines. However, it all feels like a lie and the pressure of having to be okay for work is preventing me from fully letting go and taking care of myself.

No one at work knows about this. Whether people are suspecting something, I am unsure. However, because of my high productivity and zero absences, I would not be surprised if they had no idea.

The problem is that I am on a contract, not in a permanent post and I am so worried of letting people around me down, especially the people I work with, as I see myself as highly responsible and reliable.

I would appreciate your thoughts. Thanks.

Hey everyone,

I have been struggling with an eating disorder for more than half of my life. Never fully recovered but experienced periods of "it's still there but better". However, for about 3 years now, I've been going through a serious relapse, with occasional suicidal thoughs due to feelings of hopeleness at times (no plans to act on these). Consequently, I've had a few recovery attempts, which all resulted in me getting worse than before.

I an probably someone who you would call a highly functioning individual. I myself work in mental health and am able to complete my work if I rigidly stick to my ED routines. However, it all feels like a lie and the pressure of having to be okay for work is preventing me from fully letting go and taking care of myself.

No one at work knows about this. Whether people are suspecting something, I am unsure. However, because of my high productivity and zero absences, I would not be surprised if they had no idea.

The problem is that I am on a contract, not in a permanent post and I am so worried of letting people around me down, especially the people I work with, as I see myself as highly responsible and reliable.

I would appreciate your thoughts. Thanks.