How to loose feelings
(Sorry for my bad english)
Long story short. I had a friend, i know everything about her. She was my bestie.
we were out, something happened between us, i walked her to the bus, and after 2 hours my other friend sent me her location. she was still in town, she was in the parking lot. i started taking it a little seriously, so the next day i asked her if she wanted to tell me something about it. she told me that she was out with another guy.
first of all i started talking to her because i liked her. this was my dream come true, that i could go out with her without restrictions. i told myself that this was too good to be true. but i didn't admit it somehow. and it was so.
but i already have feelings for her, even though we only went out once. this really pissed me off, i cut off contact with her and with that i threw away the bad friendship.
I started drinking, smoking again and I'm trying to put my life back together, bit by bit, it's so incredibly hard. I can't stop thinking about it.
How do i get out of this situation? because i don’t know if i did something wrong here, or her, i don’t know if she was taking it seriously or not. bro im a delusional ant this shi hits hard. this happened to me before and i told myself, that i will give it one last shot. like this has to be it, or I quit… and then this happened. like damn….. why? why me?
guys, if you have any suggestions, please help me.
peace