u/Distinct-Breakfast35

Recently, my best friend Katie and I haven’t been seeing eye to eye. Around June of last year, Katie broke up with her boyfriend. At the time, I was going out just about every weekend with my friend Ben, his roommate Emma, and her friend Mia. After the break up, I started inviting Katie to go out with us. Fast forward to August, Ben moved to a different city and the group of 5 became a group of 4. Fast forward again to February, Katie and Emma got an apartment together. Honestly I felt really weird about this. Katie and I always talked about getting a place together and I felt like she barely even knew Emma. Fast forward one more time to now, Katie and I haven’t talked in 2 weeks. The group (+3) decided to go out for dinner. Knowing our usual weekend antics, I assumed we would be going to the bar after. So when I got to the apartment, I asked Katie if we would be going to the bar later. She gave me an attitude and said “why would we be going to the bar after?.” She had been giving me weird/mean comments and remarks like that for weeks now but this one had a little more bite to it. I said “we go to the bar literally every weekend.” She gave me a weird look and didn’t say anything back. The dinner was fine, every thing felt normal and yes we all went to the bar after. A day or two goes by and she stops sending me tiktok‘s and memes on Instagram, which is usually an indicator that we’re not on good terms. The thing about Katie is that she doesn’t like to take accountability for her actions, It’s more often than not the cause of our arguments. I’m the one who breaks the ice every time, it’s never been her. Now that she lives with Emma and Mia is always around, I feel like I’ve been pushed to the back burner. Sunday night, we all talking about going to a carnival that was in the next town over. A couple hours go by without hearing anything from anyone, I check Life360 (we’re all in a circle) and they’re at the carnival without me. Things like this have been happening a lot lately. For some background context, Katie hasn’t been the greatest friend in the past, but because she means so much to me, I let it go. I just feel like I’ve gotten to the point where I can’t do it anymore, but I know how Katie is and if I bring this up to her, she’ll see it as an attack and not an attempt to make amends. The thing is, she’s integrated herself into every aspect of my life. If worst comes to worst and we stop being friends, I lose Emma and Mia in the process. I have very little friends as it is, and Katie has so many I can’t even keep track. It makes me think that I’m the issue. At first I was sad about the whole thing, but now I’m just angry. How is it that she has so many friends and it seems like I can’t even keep one? Reddit do I break the ice or let the friendship go? I tried to make this as short and to the point as possible, some minor details have been left out, if more context is needed please let me know.