UPDATE: Dealing with fear?
I posted here about dealing with fear as an advanced/expert skier at the start of the season. (this is the post: https://www.reddit.com/r/skiing/comments/1po4dt1/dealing\_with\_fear/)
Y'all had a ton of great suggestions that really helped. I'm not fully over it, but I'm pretty close. And funnily enough this has made me realize a lot of things about myself, things that I've applied to a lot of areas of my life.
I'm not going to really get into it, but the main point was that I'd gotten very self-aware and the "worse" I skied, the more I focused on what I "should" be able to do. It was a downward spiral, because ironically I the sights and skiing are the only things I enjoy about the mountain, so just spending time in the snow wasn't working. I started being more meditative and focusing on what I was feeling instead of what I should be feeling, and I tried to take it a run at a time without pressuring myself.
I'm going to celebrate this by getting new skis for next season (lol).
Anyway, the point was to thank all the people who suggested new approaches or new ways at looking at things. And I guess if anyone else struggling with the same issue in the future will search reddit and find this post... it can be done.