Am I heading to hell?
I'm a believer and I am a caregiver to my totally blind mom. However she is very impatient, wants my attention all the time, and has some anger issues (I too have anger issues too).
Long story short, she expects me to attend to her every need. My dad is elderly and doesn't help much expect drive her to places and my brother has a full time job (I'm still trying to find work). but I'm like the only one that is having to take care of her every need or want. I am exhausted and I been having no sleep almost every night due to stress and yelling with her because she yells for my attention when I tell her I am doing something like for example cooking myself food to eat.
She wants to be entertained 24/7 and it's just not humanly possible with me. so I get angry and I yell at her. calling her the B word and stuff like that. not fool though.
however this is the second time I see the bible verse about Jesus warning on calling people a fool is in danger of hell fire and I feel like it's a warning honestly.
I don't feel fear but a bit of anxiety.
my question is, am I heading to hell because I call my mom names? (she calls me names too also; it's not just me).
I need to know the truth.. I'm kind of panicking a bit. I also struggle with hearing voices in my head and so there's that too. the stress has been making me feel like I'm in a dream state or not in my body almost everyday. it's uncomfortable and stresses me out.