Holding a conversation, engaging and or trying to maintain societal norms for me is challenging. I can fake it, I can be the best fraud....delete delete, I used to be able to be the perfect text book fraudster for 40 years until I couldn't. The trauma I have from this is quite frankly the hardest part of my journey.
What has helped - finding my tribe, I have noticed the neurospicey folk flourish in tribes. This is hard, losing the mask even among similar peeps after years of performing feels fraudulent on its own, a contradiction of many years. Feck!
Be true to yourself, do not worry about letting others down at your expense. You will find new relationships and you will come out of it (says me at rock bottom).
If engaged in therapy....this is so challenging. My doctors appointments, my therapy, have for so many years built a profile about me that alone was fake. When I stopped masking the help I was receiving became helpful. Life is hard.
I now use art as a way for me to get my many thousands of thoughts that I can't find the words for.