Lost everything since last June. Drowning in debt and feel totally disconnected from God. Where do I start?
I’m at a point where I don’t know where to turn anymore. Last year, I was sitting on nearly $250k, and today, I’m almost $70k in debt. My life has been turned upside down, and the financial pressure is so heavy that I’ve had some really dark thoughts about just ending my life.
I’ve tried manifestation and other techniques, but nothing is clicking. I feel like I’ve lost my connection with the divine, and honestly, I feel a lot of guilt about it. I want to reach out to God because I need help getting back on my feet and providing for my family, but it makes me feel greedy... like I’m only looking for a "transactional" relationship because I’m in trouble.
I’ve been reading about the Lakshmi Beej mantra, Kanakadhara Stotram, and Samputik Sri Suktam on this sub. I want to start naam japa or a dedicated practice, but I’m so confused and overwhelmed that I don't know the "right" way to begin.
How do you rebuild a connection with God when you feel this low?
For those who have lost everything and come back mantra or practice actually helped clear the path?
Is it wrong to pray specifically for wealth when you're drowning?
I just need a direct intervention. Any advice on where to put my focus first would mean the world.