I've Accepted The Reality of My Game and I'm Having Loads of Fun
I'm a terrible golfer. Garmin says my handicap (before I stopped keeping score) is +32.3. I've taken two lessons (which made me worse for 6 months) and could not resist the temptation to murder the golf ball every swing. Tops. Chunks. 35 yard drives. It has been terrible and my lousy game made me legit angry on the course.
Then about three months ago I took a short break and I began to accept that I'm just a shitty golfer. I stopped keeping score, focused on mindfulness on the course, and tried to play old man golf (cause my shoulders just can't take another chunk). Easy swings, live with whatever happens and reassess once I'm up by where it landed.
My god this is way more fun. And I'm playing better too. I might even take another lesson and see if I'm ready to start worsening my golf game again.