going crazy on day 29
Hey! So currently day 29 without vape. I don’t know - there are days where I think I’m free of it and then there are days like today that just want to make me relapse. I wouldve never thought that I was this hooked especially mentally.
I don’t know what to do anymore - how can I be so fine for some days and then so miserable the next days. I feel like a maniac bro.
I don’t know in general I am a very sensitive person so I get stressed and irritated by a lot of things which leads to cravings. For me and for many others I believe my vape was not just a habit or addiction but also a tool.
I’m feeling super depressed. I even listened to Allan Carr’s book cuz so many ppl recommended it. For me it made things worse. He said stuff like when he smoked and actually paid attention to what it feels like he realized he didn’t enjoy it. Brother. I do enjoy vaping it tastes like sweets and I just love it. I can’t get myself to hate it or at least like it a little less. I don’t know what to do anymore. Also I don’t breathe better it’s always been fine and my heart palpitations that I had are still there. So now I’m sure that it is because of stress. And Idc what anyone says vaping helps against stress. And if it doesn’t it feels like it cuz it just tastes good so I enjoy it. And plz don’t say that’s the nicotine talking.
I just feel hopeless it’s a never ending cycle. I can’t seem to change my view on it and everyday is such a fight for me. And how do I live honestly??? I’m 22 so many of my friends smoke that alone is hard enough in university during breaks. Now all they want to do is go out drink and party. I’m starting to be convinced it’s only a matter of time till I start vaping again.
Any advice? Anyone who had the same problems one month in??? Can anyone guarantee me that it will get better even if I can’t change my mindest? Or how do I change it????