u/Desperate-Repair-275

Anyone else be in a lesbian relationship, identified with being pretty much lesbian forever, but then have bi feelings start to come in the way? I am 32, post-op as of a few months, transitioned 5 years ago. Have been with my gf for 3 years. Since about a year in I’ve struggled with my attraction to men and what to do about it. Have tried having casual sex with men with my lesbian gf’s presence. She’s pretty grossed out by them so it didn’t go great for her. I am definitely not fully straight. I’m also attracted to women, but pretty much only fantasize about men, especially when things are rocky with my gf. It’s caused a lot of issues in our relationship and now we’re starting sex therapy. I worry that I’m just not able to do what other bi monogamish people do and just masturbate when you are keen for something different. Like I hope that will satisfy me if me and my gf’s sexual connection improves. I’m not ashamed to be into men, but I think transitioning and missing out on experimenting with men may lead to resentment that I won’t be able to shake. Can anyone else relate? Am I trying too hard to make a lesbian monogamous relationship work? Were you like me when you were figuring out your attraction to men? Hope this post is OK for this space.

I have had DPDR in the past. One severe episode lasted about a year. My perception was totally warped, it felt like I was a little person inside my robot body's brain controlling all my actions, seeing everything projected on a screen. I feel some echoes to what I hear from the experiences of dissociation in people with FND. There isn't anything on the internet which says DPDR is part of FND spectrum, but I wonder if it could be understood as such. It is certainly so different from the experience of other psychiatric conditions.

I've run into this issue many times in my TBI patients but am always antsy about it. They've had a small traumatic SAH (along with their contusions and SDHs) and aren't getting relief from typical abortives, and it's too early for preventatives to have an effect. They are young and don't have any vascular disease. In my country, CGRP's are not available. In rehab setting, IV meds are not practical (and actually not possible at my current place). I haven't been able to find any research on safety of triptan after SAH. Any thoughts?

Before: https://voca.ro/1mZ6xGiBrDT2

5 months after: https://voca.ro/131gYaXkZauV

Crazy happy with the results. Have gotten orchi, BA, FFS, VFS, vaginoplasty, and I think this surgery did the most to help my dysphoria (but still early days out from vaginoplasty!) AMA

I have felt this too early in my transition and I feel embarrassed about it. It’s like begging for the very lowest form of validation to just be seen as simply “a fuckable woman”. We are goddesses whether or not others see it, whether or not we feel it. All women are goddesses. This obsession with straight men for validation is so lame. Now that I don’t have much dysphoria since getting all the surgeries I can see through it a bit.
No problem with liking/loving guys, but if you are doing it for validation I think you’ll never be really happy and you’ll likely settle for shit heads.

I am bi and have ruined perfectly good relationships with women because of this obsession with straight men's attention.