Slept in the same bed where I found my dad in a drug overdose
Some background info my dad got into a very rapid and almost unexplainable depressive episode last year around February. He had never been someone who was mentally ill or anywhere near it, completely normal throughout his life.
He got insomnia which eventually led to him trying to end his life, i tried to save him and stayed with him for those months but it only got worse. Psychiatric care was rejected and doctors didnt do much.. So i was alone in it.
Basically he had insomnia which i have never ever witnessed this way, even with 3-4 different sleeping pills in high doses he couldnt.
During this time something very strange happened, one morning he found a huge ”blob” of jelly in his closet. Football sized, in a broken net, it was odourless and somewhat firm but fell apart when touched. This never made sense to me and my dad showed me, but as i was in a hurry for work, i didnt pay much attention or wonder about it.
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My dad was very affected by this. He got paranoid because of the insomnia and this jelly shit, and in hindsight I could never explain what it was. Was he losing his shit that much that he could place it there? It was possible, but as he was in a major depression, he didnt leave his house, and even if he did I couldnt explain where to even get something like it.
Some time after this thing, i found him in his bed overdosed on sleeping pills. I was able to save him and at the hospital he was resuscitated. Though 2 weeks later as he was put in the psych ward after his attempt, he attempted again and jumped from a bridge and suffered multiple traumas with a broken body and severe traumatic brain injury.
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Now yesterday, as he’s not home anymore, i swapped his bed for mine since mine was a bit too big for my apartment. First night sleeping in his bed, same bed he was suffering from insomnia in, same bed i found him overdosed in. I woke up having pissed myself. Im 28 years old and i have never in my life urinated in bed. I dont know, it just felt off, and maybe i shouldnt sleep in it..