Hey guys! Its spring where I live now and things are going crazy outside! Everyone is looking so good and im super interested in this girl. We have only met a couple of times and shes a co-worker. However I cant stop thinking about her. She asked me if I wanted to go on this running event next Saturday. I haven't replied yet.
The problem is that im getting worse and worse (currently on no meds). I am feeling bad almost all the time lately, and she knows nothing about that. I haven't told any one at work about my health situation.
I just wish things were easier. I want to participate on events, and be strong, but I cant anymore. I used to be able to lift weights and do physical straining things. Now I need to priortize resting, and im also scared of meeting someone and showing my weakness. Its really hard to open up.
I also have celiac disease and a quite severe IBS as baggage aswell. I feel kind of lost. Im trying to tell myself to not care so much, but its hard in these times. I really like this girl!