What helped you heal?
Those that are years from their TFMR, or consider themselves healed — I know it will always hurt and we’ll always carry this with us, but those that feel healed, that are no longer in pain/suffering and wondering when does it end, those that truly accept what happened, what was it that REALLY helped? Was it an aha moment? Was it a specific therapy? Was it a mantra? Was it just time?
I’m almost a year out. Triggering dates are coming up (NIPT results and the TFMR date) and I’m scared to spiral down into despair. I do feel like I’m healing as I have more good days than bad ones, but life still feels surreal and heavy, cry a couple times a week and feel sad when I think of what could’ve been. No LC or sub pregnancies either.
I have a few things (good things!) coming up that hopefully serve as a distraction this entire month and into June. But I can’t help fearing the trigger dates even though I know it’s in the past and I am safe right now. I keep repeating myself “what happened, happened, and there is no other way it could’ve happened than how it actually did”