u/DepressedPumpkins

Today was my last TMS session for depression and anxiety. My scores for depression are roughly 50% better than when I started and my anxiety scores are about 60% better. My brain 'responded' to treatment, but not enough for it to be considered remission.

Do I feel like these past 7 weeks have been worth driving to my doctor's office 5 days a week for 20 minute sessions? No. Do I think TMS was worth the $800 I paid? Also no. But I've heard that healing from TMS can happen after the sessions have ended. So I will save my final judgment for later.

I'm currently on session 29. On the third week of treatment, I woke up one day full of rage and it hasn't gone away since. I hate who I am now, and I'm scared this is going to be my new normal. My psychiatrist told me it's "probably something to work through in therapy" but I feel like that's a b.s. answer. Please tell me this is normal and that it gets better. I feel like this anger is making my depression come back.