My father expects me to get 1st/2nd/3rd rank in JEE ADV.
I took a drop year, and around December my father randomly asked me, “1st/2nd rank aayegi na mains me?” I literally went “huh??” because I thought he was joking at first. I told him straight up that it’s not that easy and that I could only try my best. But then he sat me down for like 30-40 minutes explaining why I should get those ranks. After that conversation, it honestly felt less like motivation and more like an expectation where “no” wasn’t really an option. So every time he brought it up after that, I’d just smile awkwardly. I never said “yes” because I knew how unrealistic it was, but I also didn’t say “no” because I already knew how that conversation would go.Then mains result came. Obviously I didn’t get AIR 1 or 2 because that’s genuinely insanely hard, but I still got a really good rank. Good enough for colleges like IIITA and top NITs. I was honestly relieved because I knew I had worked hard for it. But my parents still weren’t happy.
Now they want the same kind of rank in JEE Advanced too, which is honestly just absurd at this point. And the worst part is they keep saying things like “drop lene ka kya matlab hua agar ye ranks nahi laa paaya to,” and then right after that they’ll go “hum pressure thodi daal rahe hain tere pe?” Like, what am I even supposed to say to that? If I say “haan pressure daal rahe ho,” then somehow I become disrespectful or weak for not handling it. And if I say “nahi,” then they just keep doing the same thing again and again.
What genuinely confuses me is where this expectation even came from. It’s not like his friends’ kids are getting these ranks either. Most of them aren’t even close to my rank. I’m not trying to put anyone down, but I genuinely don’t understand why my result is being treated like it’s some huge disappointment when objectively it’s still a really good result.
At this point I honestly just feel tired and lost. I don’t even know what I’m supposed to do anymore.