u/Dependent_Policy_150

finally i am logging out from reddit now i cant be more demotivated after seeing converts, 99%, cracking CAT in 1st attempt and what not.....

so i got way to poor percentile in 1st attempt didnt expect that much forget t1 even t69wont give a call. scored decent in nmat again didnt apply in anything cuz i thought i can do better, in my generation no one had ever ace CAT, not even spjain nor nm mumbai so many relatives kid did from t2-3 etc or foreign university but today my relatives friends everything they said to me got flashback in my mind saying kya hoga tera even my parents...

today i felt more like a burden on someone, the respect is only given to the one who earns something for family....when i earned my 1st 850rs i was so happy with 1 week internship trust me the feeling was different some data operations work, but when i look at school alumni on linkedin nothing demotivates me more than this i mean some are in foreign university iit iim they are less worried than me...

trust me BBA mein gand marne gya 0 outcomes from those 3 yr degree now what i realized quite late but i wish i could have done some skills but khair time flies....few days back relatives in party said how her son is in bank of america after passing out from IIT blah blah which made me curious about my life badly kya kar rha jivan ke sath...even my family pressurized me so badly i literally lost confidence in myself, even i broke out badly crying in front of them before 20 days of CAT trust me in my life i cried for studies for 1st time like so much pressure on me...

still i studied but eventually lost before 10 days of CAT handling bba exam too and then "khud se bol diya nhi hoga" and gave up on studies....after 3 month of break of post CAT i got back slowly started again with coaching hoping to crack this attempt and shut everyone mouth...the one day they even said ki jiske pass pesa hota na uski ko izzat milti yaad rakhna....meine bhot socha ki dusre exam per focus karunga but no at the end i want to go in top b-school of country backup ka kya len dena...all back up went in vain sirf CAT is main focus even my friends said on my face nhi niklega tere se that hurts me even more but kuch bhi nhi keh sakta mein.....bye once again see you on 29 nov at 7 pm...atleast i realized my mistakes i made in 1st attempt wapas nhi karunga ye sab corn reddit masturbate motivation song etc......but pata nhi tha reddit itna bura nikelga CAT ke liye...ki adat hogyi meri usme..

bye see you on 29 nov with some good hopes....logging out

the case over here is my clg will end in june 20 finally result everything out and unemployment phase begins okay so issue is my aim is iim okay ik i am working hard for it but it doesnt gaurntee 99% after 100% efforts same goes in all competitive exam so the problem is CAT wont gaurntee me 99% this yr what if i get 99.5% etc that good no issues but having a job is better right ? to be honest i hate corporate side after bba like izzat nhi miti having a govt is better i cant risk my future by chance i failed to get my dream college i will end up with nothing that the truth...the risk is job security in pvt sector for most of us and joining govt at age of 21 is huge achievement in india not everyone cup of tea the truth is i never want to work for govt just doing cuz backup failed already CAT nmat so it important to be something to earn otherwise die out of shame being unemployed in house. my problem is i hate joining corporate after bba and having govt job feels me safe and give CAT alongside no worries in this case...but having a job matters me like decent like nabard or sbi and cant focus so just giving these exams for sake i am sure this attempt i can crack nmat easily no gaurntee about cat...my aim is iim the only problem is time not everything turn out to be true

So we all know sbi po isnt out yet but ibps and rrb dates are fixed what about rest government exam upcoming in this month ? last 1 month left for my graduation i want to fetch job before mostly aug-sep but there are 1000 exams in govt sector how to check which is upcoming and so on ???? getting job matters over time consuming truth is govt exam takes yr to give job to aspirant pre mains interview but starting early will fetch something right ?