I feel a tight tension like a knot that doesn't go away. It hurts when I walk with every step that I take. I have 4 fibroids and one is about 3 inches but I've only starting experiencing this feeling within the past 2 months. It's in the same spot and hasn't let up for not moment since it began. Has anyone ever experienced this or has any idea what it could be? I have adenomyosis and endometriosis.
I realize this may be the most vulnerable post I've ever made on the Internet. I don't care at this point. I've suffered so thoroughly and contemplated suicide more times than I can count. Death has been an ongoing fantasy of mine. It represents an escape from this pain that doesn't have a formidable advarsary to name. I drink alcohol to numb the pain even though I hate the taste these days. I live a life I regret everyday I wake up in order to not cause any pain to my family. I don't see a way out. I have tried MANY different treatment and I am exhausted from trying and failing. These photos are of my mental breakdown. I was suffering from endless migraines, complete exhaustion, nausea, chronic dry eyes, and absolute fucking rage. I never had a fucking chance in this life. I've been in pain since 13 and I'm fucking PISSED. Thanks for listening. I hope that you will live a pain free life soon. I pray for your relief, whatever that means for you. Peace be unto you. I would love to post the pics I reference but I can't.