As the title stated, I have cheated in the past. I have been through extensive therapy and reformed from it however, but it still affects me to this day. I cheated during a really dark time in my life when I was going through early psychosis, but now that several years have past and I am medicated I feel as though I want to try relationships again.
The relationship, of course, ended rough on my end (though i know it was deserved). My issue however is that I'm deeply afraid of romance now? Like if i even step foot into a romantic relationship or anything close to one that I will somehow mess it up again??
I do not condone my actions nor do I dismiss them, and I am interested in someone completely different now, but how do I get rid of this fear?? I haven't hurt this person and they know of my issues from the past and the progress I have made, yet this feeling of impending doom still sits heavy on my shoulders.
TLDR: Reformed cheater (3 years ago) looking for advice on how to get rid of guilt associated with romantic relationships.