im really sorry for the wording, lutang ako medjo right now haha. i dont know how else to word it.
so, i only applied to three schools; up, dlsu, and ust. i thought i would be decided when i see the results. ust is gonna come out maya maya, but kahit na up and dlsu pa lang nagrerelease, im already really torn. instead, a lot of questions popped up and i think it would be answered if i learned new information.
im not sure lang if i could do that something to learn the information i need.
if need context;; ang pinaka-priority ko sa pagpili ng school is tuition, pero of course it depends din sa course ko. basta may certain standard ako based on tuition and the course i chose. u can skip sa baba w the star (★) if u dont want to read all of this, for context lang naman.
i chose upm and upb as my first and second choices respectively (takot ako sa upd non and yes bruh nagsisisi na ko rn na di ako nagtry). halos puro med ung pinili ko for upm and bs math ang first choice ko sa upb. i was kind of undecided talaga noon ano pipiliin ko course;; iniisip ko lang which would be useful pag magkakatrabaho na ko in the future.. med was something i was scared to try dahil kailangan magsipag, but i put it in my choices anyway because eto ung dinirect sakin ng tita ko. my parents don't mind san ako na course kaso i didnt rly know what i wanted to pursue. eventually i managed to narrow it down to pharma and statistic-related maths. kaya med *is* still something im willing to try. other than med, and this is not to say na di kailangan magtiyaga rito, but i feel if i were to choose something i was familiar and comfortable with, then i would choose something math-related. somewhere along statistics or accntancy or yea. that's why i tried math sa upb (upb specifically because of personal reasons na rin). pero i will be honest, i would choose up in a heartbeat only if i could pursue med. except di ako nakapasa sa upman.. tho im aware na if may slots pa available, eligible ako for recon because upb's cutoff na upg is 2.5. that's the crucial detail!! even if di ako makapunta upman, im also aware i can tiyaga to switch campuses or courses!!! unrelated na, but there's also the what-if-i-applied-for-upd thought in the back of my head na would only be answered if i saw my upg. correct me if im wrong pero makikita mo lang if yun if u accepted the offer.
as for dlsu, nakapasa ako first choice. i like the course na pinili ko here na related sa math, more than upb and ust. pero compared to the latter schools, dlsu is incredibly expensive.. even na if di ako magm-med, i would definitely prefer this course. in all honesty though aghh if i was making bank i would so choose dlsu talaga 💔💔 marami rin me kilala /makikilala dun.. im eligible for scholarship, but im scared na ill fail or mababa ang discount na makuha ko if ever tas i unintentionally place a financial burden to my parents..
i dont know if ill pass ust, but priority program ko is accountancy and alternative ko is pharma.. IM REALLY REGRETTING IT!! sana naging thomasian ako if i passed tas prio program ko is pharma.. unrelated, but id be able to bear the dresscode too. the dilemma here though is dlsu and up kaya ill keep it short dito.
★ so di ko kasi alam yung linya rito.. i need direct verbal confirmation... could i apply for scholarship sa dlsu and accept the offer sa up simultaneously?
advice/reassurance on ano pipiliin ko in general is appreciated din :) im really sorry for the messy wording huhu