Okay , 2 years ago - at the end of the school year , my best friend of 8 years started being really mean to me.
She was insanely cold and screamed at me for random stuff I did , and it was very off of her to do so.
Okay so some history , 2 years ago she and some of my other "friends" went behind my back and went out on a trip without me and created a groupchat without me ....
Okay so back to the story , my bff would get mad if i called her by her nickname...it was that bad and she became kinda toxic. Fyi , i know her Roblox password because i made it for her and i kept getting notifications.....so me being stupid af , i opened the chat and saw her talking to a girl name ...let's call her "jessica" , so jessica is older than her , she's uni studying psychology , i know this because before bff turned toxic she mentioned how she talked to jessica.
In the chats , my bff told jessica stuff about how i was ugly , and how i wanted to know everything, (this was caused due to the groupchat situation) , and how i made her feel insecure (maybe i did and i feel bad , i was insecure myself) , and Jessica told her to get rid of me because bff was so much better than I am , and while reading this i started crying because of how guilty i felt and the next day i apologized to bff saying stuff like "i did a little self reflection and I'm sorry if I ever made you feel worse , or made you gloomy because I'm not doing the best. I'm sorry if I butt into your convos " etc etc...
And now comes the part i regret...i unfriended jessica on Roblox .
I know this is so terrible , and i feel sick thinking about it and i needed to let it out , i know realise that this was messed up since i crossed her boundaries and maybe i am toxic...but now we're doing really really well . We're both supportive of each other and we are our go to people , and we're now continuing a friend pship of 10 years :') , but she doesn't know any of this because i don't wanna ruin everything again. I'm a terrible person tho :)
(Sorry for the rant)