I’ve been on 150mg XL for 2 weeks. The first 1–3 days, I felt pretty wired, but by days 4–5 I felt AMAZING. It was honestly mind-blowing because it was the first time I felt completely free of depression & anxiety and actually “normal.” My (chronic) SI completely went away, I was significantly less self-critical, and I finally felt motivated do things with friends and get things done — even without Adderall, which I’ve been on for 15+ years.
I was describing how I felt as being “at peace” for the first time in my life. I truly couldn’t believe it! I also noticed I had more control over my impulses around food and marijuana in a way Ive never felt. After 8+ years of daily use, I was finally able to stop smoking completely. I truly felt like I had found my miracle medication!
Now that I’m 2 weeks in, though, my depression, SI, lack of motivation, and anxiety have mostly returned. I basically feel the same way I did before starting the medication. The impulse control effects are still somewhat there, and I still haven’t smoked weed yet (I’m on day 10), but the urges are definitely getting stronger again compared to the beginning.
Has anyone else experienced this? Any insights into why this might happen, or if there’s anything I can do to start feeling better again?