u/DefiantPlane6699

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So many positive things happening to me this week fr fr

Managed to, for the first time in years, overcome my anxiety enough to actually talk in vc with my friends while playing games with them on stream! I wish the vod existed so I could go back and hear my own voice and how it went, but honestly every time I brought up my pitch and resonance tracker on my phone I was perfectly in the range.

My friend who was streaming remembered that I told him a few months ago I was going to be doing voice training and after he ended his stream he said my voice sounded really good and way better than he remembered, and it made me feel really happy 😊😊 and he said I just seemed way happier and more glowing than I had in a long time 😊

I'm really proud of myself for finally going and doing things with people again. I'm tired of rotting away my life, and I finally feel like I have the potential to make meaningful improvements. Thanks to the people who put up with my doom spiral posting and tried to lift me up during them, because the positivity and uplifting has given me the confidence to try and life live again <3

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u/DefiantPlane6699 — 11 days ago
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Inb4 people in the comments calling me a BDD passoid or calling me stupid for manmoding

So yeah, went out with my friend for dinner, makeup, did my hair, dress, stockings, flats, dug my purse out of my closet, all that fun stuff. And much to my surprise we went out for dinner and talked and despite my constant scanning I never saw anyone stare at me or give me weird looks. Genuinely surprised ngl. But it felt nice, my friend said I looked pretty in makeup. It was my first time going out with makeup on in like, at least 3 years. She also said my voice sounds nice and way better than last time we met, and I agree, but it's good to know my voice training is really paying off =3

So this makes 3 days this week where I girlmoded (twice to work, once to dinner here). And in all 3 instances everything went completely fine. No weird looks, no stares, no comments, just treated like anyone else. Made small talk with the waitress and didn't notice any "sudden realization" of me being trans.

Honestly it feels great. I'm sorry I am so brainwormed, I will try and take this week as an opportunity to grow and learn as a person. Also I might do my makeup more since it felt nice being out in makeup despite me being convinced wearing makeup would make me clocky, and I think it genuinely makes me cuter =3

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u/DefiantPlane6699 — 12 days ago