This is more of a happy rant to say fuck you to everyone that didn't believe me .Im currently 20 and ive been doing tren since I was 16 . At 17 my cycle look liked and ill name every reason why I took these specific compounds
First we had Testosterone-E 250/300 for the base
Tren Ace- 100 for raw strength and body recomp
Turinabol to help with lean bulking
Primobolan to help me keep as much gains as posisble when I gradually cycle off the tren
Eplerenone to help keep a lean and youthful face and get rid of that roid bloated
Dutasteride to keep myself look young and not lose too much hair surprisingly it actually worked
Ghk-Cu to keep that youthful look
NAD+ to also help with that youthful look
HGH - simply because I was insecure of my height ( mind you I'm 6'0 and no the hgh did jack shit except help me keep gains and eat well )
Yeah I was obsessed with getting stronger and being athletic and the main reasons why I did this was to be better at MMA I wanted to go pro but unfortunately my life had a bit of a detour. My parents were highly agaisnt it . Forgot to mention the relationship between me and my parents was extrmely shakey and very hostile . Like very . Constants back and forth and my mom was one of those people who were just never wrong no matter what and when you try to reason with her ( FAIRLY ) she goes batshit crazy like you did something to her or like you stole a winning lottery ticket from her m she's fucking crazy . So one could say I had serious mommy issues and that combined with me consntsly running away from home was. Recipe for disaster.
So almost evryday after school I would go straight to the gym and basically spend my whole day there . I kid you not there were days I would sleep outside and use the gym showers and eat breakfast there . It was embarrassing but luckily not alot of people noticed except for one of the ladies that worked at the gym . Now I was around 16 and this was when I started taking tren and I felt like MMA was my only way out . At 17 i was insanely huge and athletic asf . I was benching 180 KG for reps . Squatting 220 kg for reps and deadlifting 190 KG ( wasn't a big fan of deadlifts) i would compete in local MMA and jiu jutsy tournaments in town and would often place high like 2nd or 3rd at worst . Sometimes I'd even win . Mind you I was completing with grown men who were also on substances . My coach who was also a restaurant owner said I had great potential and would sometimes even let me stay at his place because he knew about the situation with my parents he would also give me a job at his restaurant and let me eat there for free .
Now here's where things got dark asf . Alot of girls and women were noticing me and I mean alot . Some would give me hints others would straight up approach me . This was crazy at first because I never used to get this attention before . I can't lie it was genuinely overwhelming. Atleast 5 women on average would give me some sort of hint or approach me per week And girls my age almost eveyday it was either the same girls from my school or girls from other schools or a atleast 2 new ones every month. . I cant lie I liked it at first loved it actually but it was WAYY to overwhelming . Then my dumbass started chasing after this one girl she was 20 and I was 17 . None of the other girls nor women comapred to her wnd she knew i would give up the world for her . I thought I had a shot with her but not only did she lead me on but she also clowned me . Her excuse for clowning me was the age gap. I was confused because I never treated her in a wrong way I used to treat her with so much respect and I genuinely loved her . What she did to me crushed me . Not to mention she bailed last minute to my prom . The combination of this , the relationship I had with my parents especially my mom and bad memories I had with people in general made me very misantrophic. I genuinely hated people and saw them as less than . Like its not even joke it was bad . The only people I respected was my coach and the lady that used to talk with me at the gym .
Gradually I stopped turning down the hints and advances I was getting from women at work and the gym and completely shut off girls in my age group . I stopped hanging out with guys as I felt they were useless to me unless they were sparing partners . Alot of guys were jealous of me so I genuinely believed having guy friends wouldn't benefit me at all neither would being close with girls in my age group .
So then it began i started flirting with so many older women I think the youngest one was 6 years older than me and the oldest was 44 with 2 kids . I was 17 at the time . Obviously I lied to most of these women about my age and told them I was 23 even tho most didn't believe me they still went with the flow . At first I used these women for some sort of security and love and attention but it slowly turned into me using them for money and sex . I used that money for beauty products, steroids and sometimes a place to stay like a fancy ass hotel for the weekend or a few days . If not I would just stay with one of the women . My coach began to notice and would always send me these corny ass TikTok and Instagram reels about men controlling their lust and edits of rocky ( i wish I was joking 😂😂😂) My mother at the time who still didn't give a fuck about me was also beginning to notice the lavish life style I was living because I had 2 new phones and new clothes every month . She knew I was getting it from someone but didn't give a damn at first only later when I moved out she confronted me about it but it was too late . My dad was furious about it and was interrogating me like a fucking cop kept telling me how if I wanna leave the family and if he wants severe ties with him I should go on like this blah blah blah motherfucker was barely even there for me anyway so I barely took him seriously. At 18 I moved out and had enough money to buy an actual home but I bought it in a difference province ( I live in south africa ) so i contiuined staying with my coach and eventually moved in with one of the ladies for a while . The money those women gave me I used it to buy online courses on how to make money as well as drop shipping courses and they genuinely helped me make alot of money however I was still using these women though because it felt addictive . But something weird was happening to me . Sexually I was only atrracted to muscular women and older women in general . I tried going back to dating girls my age but it just didn't budge for me . My dick wouldn't even get up at first I thought I was getting tren dick but no that wasn't the case . When I went to the other ladies place it would go up every time I saw her get out the shower . Thats when I fucking knew the drug fucked me over . Till to this day im very atrracted to older women and muscular women and there's nothing I can do about it . Anyways thats my experience on tren and life in general really. Still pursuing MMA .