u/Defflu

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im not diagnosed with anything other than depression but recently i have been considering weather i may have bipolar2. i occasionally feel how i would describe as "normal" where i am just moving through life, keeping up with uni assignments, etc.

other times i am significantly depressed

  • zone out more frequently and the world feels muffled
  • mind overwhelmed with depressed and anxious thoughts
  • SI very regularly (multiple times an hour)
  • i use sleep as an escape from my brain
  • impulsive thought of self sabotage (relapsing SH)
  • no hunger but then occasional binge eating

the rest of the time i feel:

  • emotionally numb
  • i took an OD(not intending on Sui**de) so that i would feel something a few days ago
  • no sleep or very little
  • energy but not doing anything
  • anxious energy constantly
  • desire to SH or ODimpulsively (sometimes i do)
  • unprompted iritability
  • rapid mood swings but no happy emotions (between sad, anxious, angry, etc)
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u/Defflu — 6 days ago