u/Deep_into_theabyss10

Let me start from the start:( I am a t3 clg going kid)

I am 19 years old and I have always been like this.

When I was around 16 or 17 , I had turned 173 cm in height , my face cut is a bit -sharp lets say , long sharp nose , I kind of look like a creep for women because of my sharp features. As men we only want respect in the world , in front of our girl , in front of your Dad , your mom , everyone , let's just say , I never got that , everyone passively respects me because they are scared or rather disgusted of my reaction after. Whenever I tried talking to other women , I always feel that I am a toolbox for them , I never feel like I need to form connections , of course I am straight and I like women , but I always feel incapacitated in terms of being a 'stud' , yeah you can call me an incel , a dweeb , a loser , but I am not , I genuinely give everything a try.

I exercise aggressively and consistently , I mantain proper hygiene, I read books and I educate myself, but I feel incapacitated and I fear to cut an emotional part of me while interacting with females or just everyday people in general .

I don't know what is up with me , is it my height , my face , what is it I don't know , some kind of reluctance suddenly clouds my entire mind when I am up with a female just because some voice tells me , if you tell her about yourself , she would not care , you are a short imbecile, this and that , and you know what the moment I tell her about the deepest things I believe in they instantly get turned off and look for a better man.

What is the cure ? , is it my height? , what is it?

Do guys my height 5'8 constanly go through this or is it just me?

I had enough of all of this and all this js so unfair.

I am 5'8 at 19 and I just want to ask every single conventionally tall person(5'10-6'0)

So , is it still possible to grow a couple of inches before I hit 20 just so I hit about 5'10 or maybe 5'11(very unlikely) . Did anybody experience this ever , or is this just a lie people tell others , or perhaps did your brother/dad/boyfriend every experience this.

Any type of criticism, and height jokes are welcome, but if you really know a story please tell me what he/she did to get to that height ?

(I didn't go to r/short because they would've hated the post like crazy and my post would've been flicked off)

I basically go to college while living with my parents. It is a Tier 69 clg , I am not victimizing myself here , but I literally am losing every little part of happiness and drive to do anything on an everyday basis . No real friends , those who are , simply are there because I help them in some way( drop them near their hostels) , everyday is basically a struggle , assignments , this and that , my parents are the biggest issue here , they have created a very stressful environment at home , high voltage fights always arise , I always think of the past , my JEE days , when I had the chance I could've studied and went for another clg , but I drank kool-aid and joined this crappy t3 institute where I get stress from both ends , fucking dogshit profs and at home where my parents eat half my soul , coding , pff , I haven't done that at all , I exercise and everything , I read many books and all , but I just don't have it , can't think of basically anything for myself anymore ,I basically can rant about this for hours and hours , but I desperately want to get out of this . Save me , god.