Hello manifestors! Long-time lurker here. I had been visualizing with SATS and imagining what i wanted (moving a specific city to be with my LDR partner) for a while. A few months ago, I randomly caught the "mood" of the reality of my wish being fulfilled. It wasn't like dissociating from the 3D but more like a constant, subtle overlay of an ambience of the wish fulfilled. That lasted for a few days.
Again, that was a few months ago already, and those moments still randomly come and go. I cannot really force myself to have them. I also try to feel the wish fulfilled when I'm drowsy before I fall asleep at night or take a short nap. Right now, about my desire, I am not absolutely 100% certain that it will happen, but I am leaning more toward that it could happen. These days I've been choosing every morning to feel happy now, just like I would if I had my desire. I have also let go of the thought that my happiness depends on that desire. Sure, it will make me very happy, but even if I don't have it, it will hurt, but I'll eventually be okay.
Today I faced another rejection in the 3d, from an opportunity that might have achieved my wish, which seems like the opposite of what I had been assuming (I cried a little honestly, took a short nap, and funnily enough managed to feel that short "living the end" before falling asleep lol). I would've thought that this was the end and given up (logically) in the past, maybe spiraled a bit and took it as a sign to give up. But this time, deep down I keep telling myself this was a process of eliminating what isn't for me and making room for my specific desire (to a tee). At the same time, i want my desire to arrive already, but I know this could backfire and just remind myself of the lack, and that I wouldn't be so anxious if I already have that desire, haha. Honestly, I've already given up on coming up with the how because I really don't know and seem to have run out of the options I can think of at this point.
So I'm asking you if you had any similar experience, where what seemed to be a clear, blatant failure ended up being an unexpected process to lead you to the end. I would really appreciate it if you could share them. I also welcome any other tips that could give me some perspective! It would really cheer me up and help me get back up. Thanks!