Guys Am I broken?
So a few days ago I had an appointment that has left me deep in thibking idk why? I felt like the doctor didn't pay much attention to me and that's because im not good enough😭 ik gng this sound extremely stupid.
The thing is I have no social life and I don't talk much at home either, so these small interactions stay stuck with me for longer longer periods. Now the thing is I feel fomo after coming from the appointment, Allah maaf kare not the fomo of being at the hospital, but the fomo that why didn't I choose pre med? rn I am a gap year student and I did my intermediate in pre engineering and I never felt like I should choose pee med not even for a sec, but now I feel fomo even though I have heard from doctors that doctor's life is shit in Pakistan. Maybe the voices in my head accusing me of being a failure have grown so much that now I am not only comparing myself to my batchmatss and friends but also to a doctor I visited.
Maybe I got insecure looking at her because she was so so pretty and was looking so good: her hairs, her dress everything looked so perfect. Meanwhile I still don't know how to manage my hairs.