I'm writing my first novel right now and though its far from perfect, I feel defeated because I don't think this'll sell or that nobody will care. I'm not hunting after profit, but I feel like it would suck if I put all my heart into something and it either sucks or doesn't sell.
I am writing a political story mildly inspired by the game Suzerain and Ken Follet's century trilogy (in terms of style more than anything else). It's set in a fictional central asian soviet republic in the 0s following its leader as the world around him shifts. It's supposed to be an examination of the burdens of leadership and how it shapes a man, loosely based off of real historical figures of the time. It examines the themes of change, corruption, the collapse of idealism, mission vs responsibility to one's family, and the psychology of people who would make themselves "great men of history."
I'm kind of proud of my first draft (so far) but it's a very niche subject and I don't think I'm good enough at... anything to make it work. Should I just scrap this and write something more conventional and appealing? That's not to say that I don't have ideas in more conventional genres like fantasy but I like what I've written. I'm just worried it's a waste of time.