One year relationship
Me F 16 & my ex gf F 18 just broke up yesterday afternoon after being tg for a year.
I dont really know how to take it or handle it, I saw it coming two weeks before she did it so I had time to distance myself aswell and prepare but it still hurts I guess. She originally broke up with me over text until I asked her to call & she basically just said she tolerated so much to the point she resented the relationship & didnt see me as anything anymore. She told me after her prom night she got drunk and cried to her friends over how she was purposefully distancing herself from me and her friends told her she was just hurting me, but that prom night she also realized that she genuinely just didnt want us anymore & she told me she knew as soon as she stopped having me on her mind she knew itd be overr. But yeah idk what to do or how to even handle this because on one hand she never really texted me that much, even when we were in a happy relationship all that texting everyday stuff died down after the initial excitement of the first few months so its not like this is a massive shift in my routine because she was never apart of it like a actual healthy relationship shouldve been, but for some reason I just cannot stop thinking about these harsh words said to me, even if they are true its just like idk all that I can think about.
This isnt my first breakup so ill be fine but lord do I hate the pain that im feeling right now, I really wanted it to be her. Two weeks before this happened we called & I could just tell she was so uninterested but at this time I was going to chatgpt for everything because I just felt something was gonna happen months in advance & I dont really have any close friends like most people would so i would just type everything that was happening in the relationship to chatgpt & obviously I only ever got responses that gave me high hopes even though when I first started turning to chatgpt I always thought “just this one time so I know what to do, obviously ai doesnt understand human emotions” but eventually I started believing everything chatgpt told me, even though my heart was telling me she was gonna leave I had these delusions that maybe she wouldn’t because chat gpt upped my hopes. So back to the call I guess, I knew it felt off but I didnt pay much attention since chat GPT told me it wasn’t anything to worry about. She ended up bringing up the call while breaking up with me, and she told me thats when she first started resenting the relationship & she wasn’t actually listening to anything I was saying on the phone & she had already started not liking me during that call too. And idk i keep circling back to the thought that maybe if I had just listened to my heart and tried to ask what was wrong during that call things could’ve been different and we could’ve worked things out.
This is really hard without a support system I dont know who or even what to turn to. I deleted instagram & deleted everything in relation to her so I have a chance of moving on better, and I know its going to be okay in the end but right now I feel like its the end of the world and ill never get over it.
Im not on reddit much so im sorry if my texting is hard to understand from other posts up here but yeah I really just need some advice