Hi :D this is my first reddit post so forgive me if i go off topic 😢
i am 17F, and i've never been in a romantic relationship, but i've had a good friend of mine tell me that i might be orchid romantic. she's asexual so i trust her judgement on this topic, but after looking into the definition, i'm not sure if it applied to me. i've recently joined a co-ed school as a person from an all girls school for 4 years (where i self labeled bisexual as i had my only girl crush there) and this made me think more about my sexuality.
for context:
even though i've never been in a romantic relationship, i've ALWAYS had a crush on someone, mostly multiple at the same time ahahah... at that time i thought it was just normal crushes but looking back now i think it was just a form of escape from school. i am also the type of person to keep a crush strictly to myself and never confess. i would also (sorta) actively avoid any sort of contact with my crushes.
and how do i say this... i am also kind of repulsed by physical touch (?) the feeling comes and goes but i get a bit uncomfortable even when the person is doing it in a platonic-joking kinda way. i understand this is normal but all my other friends are okay with it so this got me thinking. OH they've always been girls doing this to me, i'm not used to the presence of guys (if it was a guy though i'll be seriously weirded out). as for romantic and sexual attractions, imo i AM attracted this way to some people, but i just accept and understand that the chances of that happening is very very low. bcs all the people i have crushes on i would never talk to or interact with. i have zero idea why i do this. however, i personally feel that i don't need to be in a relationship, i am engaging and self sufficient enough (i am a single child if it matters). but then all this could change when i get into an actually relationship (HIGHLY UNLIKELY). if it helps the other day i was imagining a scene of me waking up AND THERE WAS A NON-FAMILY MEMBER IN THE ROOM, and i got really annoyed bcs i highly value my alone time and space LOL
thank you for reading this long chunk of message :D any thoughts are appreciated!!!!!!!!!!!!!