Help me save my 20s
Im a 20(f) 2nd year college student and all my friends are dating and i know for a fact that I don't want one right now. But I have no one to go out with on evenings especially on weekends. It gets really lonely and all my friends talk about is there boyfriend's which makes me not wanna hangout with them either. They comment on how I stay in my room on weekends but what the fuck can I even do I dont want to force them to hangout with me.
I just want to focus on myself physically mentally and spiritually. Im in a phase where I don't feel like being around people anymore and work on bettering myself, im improving my acads, working out regularly but I also feel lonely at times. This all makes me wonder what if im just coping saying I wanna be on my own do my own thing bc I have no other choice. Im so scared that I'll look back and realize I didn't enjoy my life
I don't feel like myself anymore since past 1 year and im so tired of trying again and again at the end of the day im the only single friend rotting in my room. Ik there are things that are in my hand and things that aren't but for how long can I just go on on my own. I get exhausted.
I just want single people to be friends with but im gonna move out in a flat w two of my bestfriends who'll have their bfs over all the time.
I just want someone around me who doesn't wamt their whole life to revolve around their bf and wanna work on themselves bc I can't keep doing this alone.
I don't know what to do i just don't want to look back and regret.