u/Decent-Lifeguard3543 — reddlx

for context i always scream and thrash around when i sleep, or argue or fight. i dont really remember what i dream about, but my mum, who i sleep with, always tells me how i wake up and yell at her, or mumble incoherent stuff like "stop" and "please". sometimes ill grab out and hit people, and ive woken up with my hands around my neck and arms. it doesnt really bother me that much, since ive never been able to break free and know what is making me yell, and i usually dont remember.

because of my "night terrors" my parents have been nagging me to stop watching horror movies and playing horror games, and it gets on my nerves. i cant help it if my brain twists things in my subconscious, when im awake, i never get scared of horror. so i told them to wake me up whenever i would start screaming.

i have this dream two nights ago, where its my house and im sitting at my table and all of a sudden words are being scrawled onto the walls. there is light, but instead of the familiar warm glow of the ceiling lamp, its coming from the corners, and its very very dim. all i can see are these words, in greens, reds, blacks, purples, like paint. i retreat back into the laundry, which is dark, and i bump into my mother. shes so old, with white hair and shes just staring at me. i go back into the kitchen to shut the pantry door (which ive gotten yelled at for not doing) and then black ink starts seeping from the walls. then i see this thing, i dont rememver what it was, but i remember feeling terrified. i ran back to my mother who is still staring blankly at me.

i shake her and i tell her "this isnt real, wake me up" then i start screaming at her to wake me up, and she morphs into this horrifying creature, with a great skinless head and massive eyes, like that monster from Wednesday. at this point im actually convulsing as my mum tells me, and im screaming at the top of my lungs. she eventually wakes me up, and both my mum and dad are looking at me with fear. what the hell can i do to stop these freaky dreams, they never happen when i sleep over at friends houses, only when im in my bed at home. could it be tied to subconscious memories? i dont remember anything from the first 12 years of my life because of trauma.

yall the title speaks for itself ive had the weirdest most uncomfortable sexual dreams with people i definitely do not want to have sex with. for context i do get off once or twice a week but im definitely not an avid porn watcher by any means. its just monkey see monkey do, if i feel like it ill do it. but ugh lately ive been dreaming the most graphic scenes ever, and it will be with the most random and disgusting people....

please do not judge me but ive had these sort of dreams with my SISTER. with this guy who ASSAULTED ME?? oh god even typing it makes me so disgusted, i woke up and threw up i couldnt believe my mind could make something so twisted. ive never looked at her in that way, nor the guy who made me so terrified for my life that i didnt go outside for half a year... its not only them, ive been having weird dreams about my teachers, sometimes my friends. what the fuck is wrong with me, and how do i get this to stop!!