Fidgeting during prayer
Salaam everyone,
Sorry if this is a repeated question i couldnt find anything about this.
Ive recently been praying more consistently, all 5 prayers most days alhamdulilah and im really happy about that because it is so hard for me to keep routines. One thing im worried about though is fidgetting.
I just cant help it, ik youre supposed to stay still during prayer and focus on what youre reciting but i cant, ive really really tried.
I tried memorizing the meaning of all the surahs you read in salah but that didnt help, i try focusing on a point in the prayer mat but that also doesnt help. If i consciously make myself stand very still i can for a while but usually my mind wanders and i easily forget what rakkah im on and i feel like thats worse in a way.
Usually i just crack my fingers or shift my weight from leg to leg or occasionally adjust my glasses or scarf, but it bothers me because my mom always gets mad at me and says my prayer wont be accepted if i keep moving around like that, which is part of the reason i couldnt consistently pray every prayer before. I usually thought "why should i even pray if it wont even be accepted anyway"
What should i do? Should i try harder to stop fidgeting or is a little movement okay? I assume i could potentially stop unnecessary movements during prayer but i feel like that would make praying feel like a chore again and i dont want to distance myself from islam anymore.