I (20F, not sure if that matters but wtv) have been going through it lately. My life has been a lot of bad news just piling up on top of the last one. My mom and I are getting evicted and because us moving we have to re-home my dog (he’s going to a good home of someone we know, i promise), my grandfather is back in the hospital for the third time in six months, and my mom has been having health issues. Needless to say, it’s a lot and it’s extremely overwhelming.
For some background, I consider myself faithful. I believe in God and Jesus, I was baptized the day before I turned 18. My relationship with God hasn’t been the easiest, I was raised agnostic and then was roped into attending my high schools youth group where I started thinking about my beliefs. Personally, I consider myself a Christian but I am a progressive if that matters.
Anyways, today was a rough one. My mom spent most of the day on the phone with doctors at the hospital and it’s not sounding like things are gonna improve anytime soon. When I left for work, I was angry at the world. I wanted to stay in bed and not do anything until something fixed itself in my life. I was driving to work and I was thinking in my head how mad I was at God. I was thinking “Why is God doing this?” and “God please just give me a break”. I was fighting tears as I clocked in for my shift.
I work at a grocery store in the self checkout area, so it’s common for me to pick up lost items on the ground or left on registers. I noticed a necklace laying on the ground so I stopped and picked it up. Out of curiosity, I flipped it over to read what was on the pendant. It was a pendant of Saint Christopher that said “Saint Christopher Protect Us”. I took a photo of it on a whim before I handed it into customer service. As I’m walking back to self checkout, it dawns on me what the necklace was. It is a Catholic saint, known as “the bearer of Christ” that came across my path after I was just praying for God to help me. I don’t know much about Catholicism or saints in general, so I looked it up. Saint Christopher is meant as a divine protection and a pendant is often used as a symbolism for safe traveling or adventures. If that is not a direct sign from God, I don’t know what is.
This genuinely has me rattled to the core because today was the hardest i’ve had in a while and my mental health has been steadily declining lately. Seeing this meant a lot to me. I texted my old youth group leader to tell her and she texted me back something incredibly sweet, which I needed to hear since I haven’t talked to her in a bit.
I definitely believe in signs from God or the Universe, but this was just insane. I felt the need to come here and share it because the timing could not have been more perfect. I know things will get better from here. God always provides and is there for us, even when we’re mad at him.
(Thank you if you read through this whole thing, I know it’s incredibly long)