i think im in a cult?
i dont wanna say the name because god knows how many members from my church could be here and rat me out. but fuck it, it’s in kerala, india.
ive been bottling it up for more than a decade. my mother was the first to get into this church before later bringing me into it when i was 5 years old. i never questioned anything, i was a young child. this church controls you, and i mean controls you. i won’t disrespect their gospel teachings because those are their beliefs and i respect it. they have so many rules for everyone.
- not permitted to watch movies of any kind.
- cannot go to the theater
- cannot use the app instagram/snapchat/youtube
- cannot date anyone
- cannot marry anyone
- cannot be pregnant and if a married couple does get pregnant, the baby is of the devils or is the devil
- has to break all ties with family that are not in faith
- must live near the church (and if not, their pressured by the church members or the believers)
- has to attend every meeting designed specifically for certain age groups (ex: youth, infants, teenage)
…there is more but this is all i can remember at the moment (sorry y’all i just finished an anxiety attack)
here’s some of the strict rules girls have;
- can’t wear hair down, must be up in an appropriate manner (which means no bangs either)
- cant wear a dress without wrapping a shawl around it and wearing leggings underneath
- cannot show ankles
- can’t grow nails or paint them
- can’t dye hair
- can’t talk to boys
- can’t have best friends (which goes to everyone in general)
- cannot be friends with the wordly girls/people
- cannot cut hair too short
i just wanted to let that out and tell you. it’s just the rules. theres more shit happening inside. it’s so messed up and i genuinely hate it. i want out but they won’t let me.
y’all free to hmu and know more… or just comment. it’ll calm my nerves down ong.