u/DearYou2810

There are so many things to miss and reminisce about you that sometimes it feels like you’ll disappear entirely into my mind, becoming more memory than person.

You don’t know this but, you are there when I first wake up and the last thing I hold onto in my mind before I fall asleep. Thoughts of you warm and comfort my soul in ways I’ve never fully understood. The only way to extinguish this ache is hearing you or being right next to you.

There are nights when I wake at 3am and find myself typing out little notes to you, half-asleep and missing you. I wonder if they ever wake you. If they do, I’m sorry. I just miss you in a way that doesn’t really wait for the right hour, you know? It doesn’t fade.

I always imagined a happy ending for us. And if not an ending we’re allowed to have, then at least something where I can still bear witness to your life from afar, though I know that is asking too much.

It aches, to be this certain about a soul I feel so deeply connected to. It’s as if, despite the time and distance, something in us keeps reaching, keeps trying to speak in ways words can’t quite accomplish. It is this knowing that I have with complete certainty that if a soulmate or twin flame exists in this world, those words must be describing you for me.

I’ll miss our conversations, the way they flowed so easily, and the laughter that always followed. I’ll miss that unmistakable look in your eyes (the one where they crinkle at the corners and nearly close when you smile for real). The ways you always humor me, no matter how small, you always noticed it all.

I’ll miss being close to you, just existing in the same space, feeling that shared energy that made everything else seem like it didn’t exist. The butterflies, the way my heart would race so loudly I was so sure you could hear it almost exploding. Maybe that’s why I lose my words when you come around me sometimes. It’s all I can do when I look to you even when time has passed.

I’ll miss feeling drawn to someone the way I was to you more than I’ve ever felt before in my life. And more than anything, I’ll miss your heart, the beauty of it, the way it made everything feel a little more alive and how I felt it even if I couldn’t touch your skin or say the words I wanted so badly to say to you. I just somehow knew.

There are a thousand other things I could say, a thousand big and small moments in explicit and loving details I could gather up and lay out here. But even now, just thinking of you feels overwhelming to imagine you not with me, and my eyes swell up. So I’ll stop here, even though it doesn’t feel like enough. I wish I could tell you all of this and more in person.

Point is, I’ll miss everything. Everything that is you.

I love you. I always will. Unconditionally.❤️