u/DeadTiredAndWired

I to start this off I did the dumbest thing you could ever do in the midst of a panic attack for the first time in two years I took 100 mg Zoloft two days consecutively after being free of medication for 5 or 10 years. I didn't have any lorazepam and I thought maybe if my anxiety was coming back getting started on my old med made since. I'm learning now you have to build up each time. I shocked my body and immediately stopped the medication causing with draw. I have been in terrible shape for over 2 and half weeks. In therapy and psychiatrist office trying to beat the discontinuation and nothing has let up.

I have had intrusive thoughts mostly suicidal that have been so scary and I never had that even when all I had was anxiety. Also when I took those two pills I got a slew of side effects insomnia high blood pressure heart rate my man part went numb and got ed that last a week still having problems with it.

I made another visit to the psychiatrist today because I think I'm one step away from in patient care but that's not really practical as I have a job and kids.

The psychiatrist prescribed lexapro 5 mg. I have two major concerns how quickly does this minimize intrusive thoughts cause I am barely functional currently. And as far as genital numbness and ed has anyone suffered there. I keep all my hormones in check and everything has always been normal but those two Zoloft pills messed me up so bad so I'm scared to death of another SSRI but I also don't feel like I have a choice because my mental state is that bad right now.

Really just looking for some hope and maybe some experiences if anyone struggled with intrusive thoughts on the darker spectrum

Hey all,

Long story short I had a panic attack after many years of being completely free with great mental health. During the moment while my mind wasn't right I took one of my old depression pills 100mg Zoloft I took it for two days thinking maybe anxiety was coming back. I'm learning this was a terrible decision and way to high a dose without building up.

Anyways I have been sick for two weeks first with a ton of side effects high blood pressure, sexual issues, heart rate body temp round the clock anxiety.

It has been two weeks and 3 days since those doses and I have still had terrible anxiety accompanied by intrusive thoughts.

I never imagined stopping after those two doses would cause so much havoc but it has I have been to my psychiatrist and therapist at least twice each with not much help.

The psych recommended and starting ciltalopram which is another SSRI but much lower dose but I'm afraid to do that she also gave some hydroxyzine.

I really don't want to start back on SSRIs if they can cause these kind of thoughts I have never had suicidal thoughts till I took those two pills.

My question is are there any good bridging medications I can use to keep intrusive thoughts like suicide to a minimum like benzos, mood stabilizers or maybe the hydroxyzine would help she didn't really explain it but I'm gonna ask again tomorrow.

I guess I'm scared to death after having such a profound affect with an SSRI. It's weird to have never had a suicidal thought then it becomes all I can think about like I'm stuck in a negative loop.

Yes people have asked the standard shit like well do I have a plan, have I made arrangements etc. The answer is no.

When I get the intrusive thought it's more like I'm here by myself I could hurt myself. So I then try to avoid the things that could hurt me because I feel like I'm not in control. I think that relates back to my anxiety the thought feels like I can't control it and that makes me think I can't control if I made a mistake. Almost like ocd like it's just a receptive negative loop.

Let me remind you I haven't had one issue with my mental health in probably 5 to 8 years. So it's bizarre this has all happened after those two doses of medication.

Just trying to get some thoughts from people who may have struggled with something similar in the withdraw phase or took doses mistakingly or even those that had similar thoughts