I re-started birth control this month. I’m very anxious and I very much dislike the fear mongering on social media regarding the pill.
My pill is called Logest.
In 2025 I started the combined birth control pill. I was on it for about 6 months those were the best and worst months of my life.
Best because: I was so much more focused, I no longer had panic attacks before my period, awful pmdd, acne, mood swings and didnt wake up wishing I were dead.
Worst because: I felt like I lost myself, I felt dissociated from myself. I felt like my existence was a concept.
I stopped the pill in december 2025 because my doctor told me it was the worst formula I could ever take. The months without birth control were awful, but I felt myself again and felt more beautiful.
I finally started the pill again, its a new one and I can already feel how this formula is so much better but im incredibly anxious and scared of losing myself again.
In 2025 I experienced horrible trauma and as a result flipped my life over in the spawn of a month, changed my personality and abandoned everything I loved and everything that made me me, nevertheless I still associate birth control with this period of my life and Im horrified of feeling this detached and ugly again.
I really need someone to confirm that birth control doesnt just suddenly make you look like a different person and that my horrible experience was a combination of a bad formula and a messy period of my life.
I dont have any people around me on birth control, with whom I can discuss these side effects and fears