Living (Dis) Gracefully
This is going to be kind of scatter shot....
I just turned 67, and the past few months have been a rollercoaster, and it started with my car being in a traffic accident. No, I'm fine, I wasn't driving. But prior to the accident, I was thinking about retiring, as my chronic health issues became an issue. I applied for my full Social Security benefits but that was going to take months to begin. However, when the insurance settlement came in, I didn't apply it towards a new vehicle. Yeah, I have a car loan, as my old car was paid off, but instead applied the settlement towards my credit card debt.
I don't have any retirement, beyond Social Security, as I had to cash in to take care of my disabled (late) wife, as well as Covid unemployment. But I thought it smart to knock down high interest debt first. Then the hot water heater went out. Usually not an issue, except I own a 120+ year old farm house, with an old water line. But still, it's lower interest, longer term debt. Doable.
Now comes the (Dis) graceful part. I'm actually feeling better, and my chronic health issues became manageable. Work, while still physically demanding, became tolerable. Having more resources, I decided to expand my model building hobby, by getting a 3D printer, using part of my tax refund.
I've also been spending money on self love and self care. My libido has remained fairly strong, throughout my transition, but I'm always discovering new sex toys that work well with my vulvoplasty. And they're getting constant use.
I had my hormone levels drawn today, in preparation for my three month follow up with my gender affirming endocrinologist. my levels were over 400, where it was 64 on the previous labs. They doubled my prescription, so it's reasonable to see why I had quite the jump. I really think the increased hormones helped me to calm down and think rationally about things. And honestly, I feel better.
I don't mean to brag, but, how did a life on the wild side ever get so full.