u/Dapper_Push_7867

Ive had all stimulants at max fda recommended doses plus strattera prescribed and yet I still end up getting distracted for hours a day on social media such as Discord. 6 easily. It's driving me mad. No mania has ever happened as long as I take my bipolar medication. Has anybody with bipolar had any luck with getting a psychiatrist who is willing to prescribe Desoxyn? And have you had any episodes? Im in the US so it should be a possibility.

You left such an impact on me.

You're the person who's most ever understood me.

Who I could ever feel most comfortable being real with.

Who could give me butterflies just by being next to me. Just by smiling towards me.

I never got a clear answer on whether you liked me back or not.

But I was madly in love with you.

I still have feelings.

But I've hurt you too much.

My life has far too much derailed.

Nothing can ever happen.

Well, all this reflection on our relationship was a nice hour long diversion from my self-studying.

But I gotta get back to that now.

Because that's all I'm really worth to people.

I'm supposed to be some sort of gifted robot who studies all the time.

And makes up for my sins by making some discovery, however tiny, that betters humanity.

I dont entirely hate it in all honesty.

I just wish I'd never hurt you.

Everything beautiful is math.

And math is you.

I wish I could have both.