u/Daemoswritesalot

I feel like a misunderstood joke that turned into a run on sentence,

over explaining the punchline,

just to realize that it's me not understanding the joke I made myself into and whats worst is that I feel like it will never end unless I learn proper grammar

Either its not funny or it flew over my head please help me stop this

-Daemos

Simplicity is the mission,

But it takes going through

CHAOS

to get there,

You may not have simplicity until you get older,

For now, it's best to

EMBRACE THE CHAOS

Learn from it while you can,

You may miss it tomorrow,

EMBRACE THE CHAOS,

And dont forget to laugh at it,

It helps,

HAHA,

Sometimes....

-Daemos

Right now, I'm lost for words that could make this post more interesting.

Already, this says, pay attention to me.

An upvote for this, is you being considerate.

Deleted social media, facebook and insta.

Didn't warn anyone, I've been a ghost for the past year since my dad left us.

At this very moment, I'm sitting in the exact spot where I found him.

Tried CPR, he didn't wake up.

Thought I found the one, but we broke up.

Maybe I should stop after 2 finances.

Stop chasing just anyone.

Right now, I'm chasing myself.

Doing my best to never neglect my mental health.

It was almost the end of me.

Such a cliche to say I've always been my biggest enemy,

Stuck on repeat, year after year, cycles become a pattern,

That I'm just now learning how to break,

Can't fix what you don't face,

Can't connect when a mask hides your true face,

Everybody sees the mask when your two faced,

You manipulate like the first grade,

They say no, you throw a tantrum,

Never wanted to be your ghost, so I'll be your phantom.

Me ego would love to create the facade that says;

"I wont be here when you come back"

The truth is "I'll always be here waiting"

Even if we just become friends

Makes sense that you name means "Princess of the moon"

And my middle name is named after the third moon on mars,

I had a feeling before but as of now, I'll love you from afar.

And I'm mad at you for making this cluttered mess, a love poem.

It's not.

I can change my mind at any moment.

Taking an immediate turn, maybe I'll visit the ocean.

Haven't seen that since I was just a kid.

I remember being deathly terrified of mermaids,

In my head, I assumed all of them to be sirens.

Which I realize now, that everyone I've dated are exactly that.

Not saying I'm better than anyone.

But at least I meant it when I say "I love you"

I wont let myself be bitter and just say that it's a chemical.

I've felt it. I feel it now and this is the suffering part.

Cue the music.

Raise your violins.

Now play something nostalgic.

Enough where Im able to cry again.

I want to heal.

I need to heal.

Heal.

Heal.

Please, I'm tired and I'm tired to being alone.

Now I'll go back to what I'm best at, music.

I'll keep trying poetry when I feel it again.

Right now, I have no idea what this even is.

But I wont delete it.

I want to keep track of how far I've come since I wrote this.

-Daemos

I deleted Facebook and Instagram about an hour ago because I want to devote my time to writing and I'm curious to see what life is like without the constraints of feeling like I have to share it for external validation. Yanno? Just live my fucking life without being drowned in digital chatter. So, I went straight to reddit. I thought it was the best alternative for more authenticity. I want to actually connect with people online but in a more real way of that makes sense. I'm 32 and I'm learning to live in solitude, to be okay with ME as company. I strive to be more self sufficient and not be so codependent. But I'd like to find a group of people who I can do this with if that makes sense. Or is that defeating the whole purpose? Damn, I really do overthink too much. I meant to just ask if using reddit as a rebound for insta and FB and if it's healthy for my mental health? Lol