Hello!
I've been doing some research. It is a little minimal but I've been reading up quite a bit. I need a bit of feedback and help on my Enneagram.
What I got is that I am an INFP-T 2w1 so/sx 962 ( sx9 - sx6 - so2 ). I'm unsure if this makes ANY sense and I'm trying to get a grasp on what I fall into.
I'm unsure if this makes any sense or if these contradict too much.
Because of my BPD I believe my core is fearing abandonment, being left out and unloved / hated by people who I love the most. There was a time where I loved someone so much that I had to force myself to break away them and there were nights where I would cry until morning. So I do think I am an E2 at the very least.
For the goodness of others and myself I do try to think logically about how I could possibly make things right. There are times where I believe situations need explainations, but I am willing to just listen if need be. Sometimes it is hard for me to just listen and not give advice, but if asked I will comply to what people request of me as long as it is reasonable to do without hypocrisy or bias.
There are times where I have fallen into complete compliance. When I was younger, it was very frequent that compliance was all the options I had. However as I got older, I began to understand that trying to fight to be heard is a risk I'm willing to take if it's for my own well-being. I eventually got tired of playing peacemaker and I now try to be more clearer with how I feel. Although it does come with people misinterpreting it as me being passive aggressive or mean which is not my intention.
Additionally I am very protective of my friends and my partner. I love my friends and my partner very much and will jump first into confronting others who have done wrong to them ( ex. spread false rumors, insult their work, undermine their worth, etc. ). Of course there are times where I get anxious and scared of saying the wrong thing, especially when I'm either very close, friends with, or partners with the person in question or when it comes to my own conflicts; but when it comes to other people like strangers or acquaintances I barely know I get pissed off for the other person and feel the itch to jump head first into their problem to solve it through confrontational means.
Some other stuff is that I am nosy, I consider myself to be a pretty average E2, I am not the best E2 in the world but I am able to regulate my feelings and not do something for my benefit. If anything, I tend to want to do the opposite and do whatever suits best for the other person; and even attempt to give them much more than they ask or intend.
So I ask you, did I type myself correctly? 🤔 Can you help type me if I got anything wrong or if I'm missing something?