Curiosity and confusion
Lately, I've felt a draw to the lower entities (lately is not accurate, mostly throughout my study of the divine) and for a long time I strictly remained devoted to Shiva and Chamunda. Now I feel kind of lost, since I was told mostly to avoid worship of Chamunda, so it's been different devis and devtas, with a lot of Vishnu here and there. I feel guilty about not having a true bhakti focus, and I didn't really know where to ask. When I found out about the lower entities, I wanted to see if there was any way I could help them, and I was told to do so through punya and not to interact with them. That part I understand, after reading about what they can do to you.
Maybe I broke something in me spiritually after I stopped aradhna of Chamunda. I love her very dearly as the divine mother, and in my view, all entities are roopa of the divine Brahman in various ways. So I don't understand this changing of worship so much. I've memorized so many mantras, but I use only a few. I feel guilt for that too. If this isn't the right place, please let me know where to ask.
Thank you all.