Depersonalization - too high dose?
Hi, I'm 28 years old male with ADHD (probably AuDHD), prescribed atomoxetine 1,5 months ago. I started on 36mg for the first month, then I increased the dose to 54mg. First month wasn't so bad, some mild side effects were there, but all of them eventually went away. After dose increase I experienced really disturbing things, like major depressive episode with suicidal thoughts (for 5-6 days), insomnia (2 days), and finally for the last couple days - depersonalization. Right now I feel like I'm watching my life from the backseat, I feel emotional numbness and I have troubles expressing my thoughts.
This effect fades in the evening, and comes back 2-3 hours after taking atomoxetine. I take only one dose in the morning.
I've experienced some improvements in ADHD symptoms. After first month my mind was clearer, I could do things I normally forget to do, but overall the improvement was really subtle - so I thought increasing dose is the right thing to do.
I was really determined to push through the side effects, since stimulants stopped working for me after 1 year, but right now I don't know what to do. Is it possible that too high dosage is causing depersonalization? I wonder if I should lower the dose immediately, or stay on it, since every side effect I experienced eventually did fade away after couple days.