A dream I wanted to share with my fellow witches
I tagged this Deities, but signs or omens could also be a good tag. The first part of this will be a description of the dream and the second part will be context as to why it resonated with me. There is a TW: for SA in the context. I'll put the content behind a spoiler tag if you want to read the rest of it but not that specific part. If you don't want any part of the context at all, stop reading at the ⭐⭐⭐ emojis because that's where I'll end the dream description.
Edit: I cannot get the spoiler tag to work on mobile. So just skip the paragraph in between the ⭐⭐. Sorry. Edit2: I figured it out 😅
I stood in a hallway infinitely stretching behind me and ending in lightly obscured shadow ahead of me. The walls were made of carved sandstone and lit with braziers evenly spaced in alcoves down its length. I felt myself move forward as though compelled but I did not fear because I knew what was waiting for me at the end. Ammit lay curled around the scales watching my approach. My attention was not on the demon, but on the colossal figure that stepped forward out of the shadows. Anpu (Anubis). I threw myself at his feet and felt sobs come unbidden out of me. In an instant I felt him embrace me like a parent holding their child. His words, lost upon my waking to consciousness, rumbled in my chest like thunder. After what felt like an age, he let me go and I was left with a feeling of deep comfort and belonging. He took my hand and lead me through a door, I shut it behind me and found he was gone when I turned back around.
What lay before me was a tiled expanse of white hospital floor. In intervals of 30-40 feet lay variations of the same chaotic scene. A hospital bed, a patient, doctors and nurses scurrying like beetles as they responded to the codes. All locked in their own bubbles not reacting to this liminal space they inhabited. People in scrubs would disappear and reappear in these small spaces as if they were exiting or entering a room whose walls I could not see.
I walked between these scenes for an age until, in the middle of this expanse, I spotted a room. The empty space around it seemed to pull at me until, before I realized, I was standing at the door. Hesitantly I knocked, and was bade to enter.
In the room, a dark skinned man stood over a body on an autopsy table. The attending nurse exited as I entered and I knew I was meant to take their place. We talked as I handed him surgical implements to remove the organs from the body. Like before, much of the conversation is lost to me upon waking. But this final exchange remains.
He delicately severed the arteries connecting the heart to the rest of the cadaver. "Tell me, do you know why we remove the organs before mummification?"
I nodded "Partially because they will rot, but the heart is where the mind lives and it allows the soul to recognize the body and return to it"
He packed the organs into jars and smiled, though it did not quite meet his eyes "Yes, but why"
I thought for a long while, his patience with me never faultering. "By handling every intimate and secret part of their body, you know the outcome of the weighing before the soul does. You know them better than they may know themselves.
His smile broadened and finally met his eyes. He placed a hand over my heart "Exactly"
I woke up and felt tears drying on my face. The identity of the man didn't come to me until then. Osiris.
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I've worked with Anpu for over a decade now. He is my home and my place of comfort. Other dieties and come and gone in my life but he has always been there.
TW mentioned at the start begins here
>!A couple of years ago I was SA'd by the husband of someone I considered a very close friend. Unfortunately this was not the first time that had happened to me. I was also SA'd by my cousin from the time I was 6 until I was about 9. I've been in therapy and while it has helped something just hasn't mended with therapy alone!< ⭐⭐⭐⭐⭐⭐⭐⭐⭐⭐⭐⭐
Both Anpu and Osiris have domains in death. In kemtic belief, death was not just the end of something, but the beginning of a new type of existence. I believe both dieties are showing me that that chapter of my life has closed, that I need to allow myself to move forward. While I haven't yet figured out if Osiris wants to work with me, or was just offering advice, I am eternally grateful that he reached out to me. And I feel my bond with Anpu has deepened even more.