I hit my number 14 months ago and still haven't quit. Trying to figure out what that says about me
So my FIRE number was $1.1M. I hit it in March of last year. I'm 41, work in project management, have a paid off car, rent a pretty cheap apartment, my expenses are genuinely around $3,200 a month including everything. The math works. I've run it through every calculator I can find, talked to a fee-only advisor twice, the number is fine. I haven't quit.
Every Monday I open my laptop and log into the same meetings I've been logging into for 6 years and I genuinely cannot tell you why. It's not that I hate my job, it's more like I just. keep going. Like a roomba that nobody turned off. Part of it I think is that I don't actually know what I would do instead. I have hobbies, I like hiking, I read a lot, I have a dog. But "I will hike and read and walk my dog" doesn't feel like a life plan, it feels like a weekend. I've tried to imagine a Tuesday in 3 years and I genuinely draw a blank after about 11am.
I also think I'm scared of something I can't fully name. Like once I quit, the number has to actually work, and right now it's still theoretical. As long as I keep working it's a safety net I never have to test.
Talked to my brother about it last month and he said "just quit dude you're being weird about it" which, fair, but also not super helpful.
Anyone else stay way past their number and figure out why? Genuinely asking