(Trigger warning - sensitive topic) Hi! I’m a (20f)! Recently in the last year my mother got diagnosed with cancer involving her esophagus & throat. During the first month of her hospital stay, me staying with her almost the whole time, of course induced a lot of stress. I started getting a sore throat every now & then - to what I thought was allergies.
When she finally came home & things started to unravel the symptoms would start up again. I wasn’t leaving the house much so I didn’t think it was allergies anymore. I ended up googling if anxiety can cause lymph nodes to swell on one side, or if it can cause a sore throat…everything told me yes.. but the catch it I read that some of these symptoms lead to throat cancer.
I haven’t been able to shake it. My throat has a tendency of getting an itchy feeling off & on. Different sides seem uncomfortable once in awhile, and I feel hyper fixated on swallowing because of my anxiety. I don’t know if it’s a domino effect I’m causing on myself due to me being in a stressful situation and maybe adding more anxiety + pressure but I’m going crazy. I keep body checking myself and if just one minor thing doesn’t feel up to standard I fall apart.
I need advice really bad. When I was younger I had a history with smoking/vaping. I’m not proud of it. I quit heavy vaping about a year ago & stopped after 5 years. I was an idiot kid, I know. I’m just honestly horrified.