I dont know if this is the right place to seek for help.
My father passed away 5 years ago. It put me into shock, i used to see horrific things in my dream, and was into superistious things and omen things. Eventually just after 5 months, the superistious thoughts put me into a thought that i will die in a month. That time was a hell, litrelly, i was litrellly in a trap thinking that i will die tomorrow. It was litrelly too much that i belived i am going to die any how in a month. I prayed to Allah sincerely, seeking help, and, i prayed to Allah to just give me life till 30 and then take me away. Like i thought i will die in a month so lets ask Allah till 30 years age of my life. I prayed to Allah 5 times and even in tahajud for this dua. I am now 20, stressed that it was all physcological problems due to sudden demise of my father, and also asked Allah for such a dua. It litrelly feels like i will die in 30. I am so stressed right now, always thinking why did i ask this dua and wo bhi sinceerely 5 times a day just because i was disturbed at that time. Problem is i am into stress that what will happen when i trun my thirties. Pease help me, I am very disturb right now